Surviving Hard Times

It’s been a while ha since i wrote here…well it’s always been..

At this moment of my life…this was the hardest part I’ve been through. Didn’t realize it before that having a family, a wife that is, it’s a whole new experience i never expected before. As husband and the head of the family, you have to make sure that your family (to me my wife) lives happily and didn’t miss a thing.

But in reality, it’s not that easy to manage. More so if you don’t have a descent job in your hand. You always struggle whenever you are. Back in my recent post..I was happy having a new job in my career life. I considered it as a new challenge that I’m ready to fight for….. Well the fact is not always work out the way you wanted. Caution, that is when you are being tested actually. That’s is the real challenge. The challenge of life. Your emotion, your way of thinking, your decision and the will to make it are being tested.

Just 3 months to make me from happy and have high hopes, to a dead end road with no idea where I wanted to go. This is the point where I have to re stack my path all over again with the same goal. To achieve life!

Consider it a reality show with you in it. Only the different is, you know how the ending will be. And it’ll be a happy ending. You know the beginning, you also know the ending. You just have to work your way to attached it so it connects. And the audience? God is.. and God wants you to succeed!

So when there’s God, there’s hope…

When there’s hope, there’s life…

So I will never lose God from this journey of my life..



Hey it’s been awhile since i blog. I was busy with my new job and it cost me a lot of my daily time. But I’m still enjoying it though. A little bit story when I got this one, just before i got an interview, my brother in law ask me to work with him in his new project. And offered me a better salary and the work it’s not so difficult. Moreover it’s sooo easy. I just have to stay home and just updating some of the social network. Or i can bring my work everywhere i wanted to. Oh wow i can’t even think an easier one.

But somehow after i do a lot of thinking, i prefer to take the first one. Although i have to work my ass off in this one, in fact that’s the reason why. Well… no pain no gain right? Just thought the one that my bro in law offered me, it’s like it’s too good to be true. Maybe it is, but i had my decision. I’m just grateful to have those opportunity just at the time i needed one.  Thanks a lot for offering me the job, appreciated it. But so sorry bro… Maybe if you let me know before i got this one, i would gladly accept the offer.

And at this time, all I wanna say is that I’m so grateful to have all the guys, all the family that willing to help me in my hard times. In this couple of days i had problems simultaneously. And at that time too i got helped. Always got the answer for all my problems from my family and friends. I appreciated them, admire them and have respect for them. That’s why they do the same for me.

I remember Dale Carnegie said on his book I once read “Make the other person feel important – and do it sincerely

This one I dedicated to all of you guys… who helped me answering my problems, soulfully and financially 😀 .

New Job

Tomorrow is gonna be my first day in my new job. I still have my previous job as an insurance agent for about 3 years now. It’s been an up and down working in an insurance company. I know working as an insurance agent is a good job with a good future. But I don’t know it’s just not right for me.

For 3 years I’ve struggled and motivated. For 3 years I’ve been let down, come back up and trying to convince myself that this was the right job for me for almost everyday, but still can’t find the right formula to make it easier and the comfort of doing it. It’s like I’m standing on the edge of a cliff. I survived, but just making one wrong step, and then i will fall off.

So I guess it’s time for me to consider a new job without leaving the old one. And tomorrow will be the day! Just hope i can have more salary in this one :D.

reDiscover Music, reDiscover Life

What makes the world without music? That’s the first question that comes up to me at this moment. Musician won’t be musician that’s for sure :). They will be politician maybe… oh that sucks. Its been a while since i enjoyed hearing music after i have this hearing problem. I was diagnosed with sudden deafness symptom’s which i lose about 50% of my hearing ability that forced me to use a couple of hearing aids on my ears. So after that, i lost my interest in music bit by bit.

Well it’s not that i can’t hear music completely. I still can hear them but not as clearly as normal people. Moreover a music that i never heard before. I really have to pay more attention in order to enjoyed it cause you know, you must hear at least 80% of the music instrument. Well it’s kinda suck up my energy, cause i have to put most of my concentration on my ear at that time.

No singing out loud in my car no more, never interested in seeing music videos no more, never listen to the radio for over 3 years. My life was like a plain white paper with no writings or drawing on it. Just flat out. Well….kinda. But seriously i feel like i lost about 50% of my life. I lost lots amount of spirit booster.

But as the time went by, 3 years i had all kinds of therapy and meditation to make my hearing a least better. I feel like i gain a lil’ bit of it (hearing) right now. I really hope so. And not long ago I’m starting to write a blog, just trying to share my thoughts  through the days. And the needs of music strikes me once again just to get my inspiration back in writing.

I’m a big fan of Incubus so i listen to their album. I plug in my headphone, put it on and play the album. BANG! it’s like all the lost inspiration, all the hype, the hope, motivation just burst in to me all at once! Yes! This is the soundtrack of my life, and this is my story. And so i decided that i can’t live without music in my life.

And yes, music can make you feel happy, sad, angry or mad as well. But in the end, music takes you somewhere. Somewhere beyond your imagination whether you like it or not.

So whatever you are feeling, whatever situation you are in and wherever you are, hear music.

No more silence…

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A Good Breakfast


I woke up this morning with a feeling of…numb if may say. Well maybe caused by my sprained ankle injury that makes hv to rest for almost 5 weeks at home.
N later my wife asked me what do i want for my breakfast. Just so u know for about 25 years i had sandwich for breakfast. So guess its obvious that im had enough of it. At least for today.
So back to when my wife asked me, i answered nothing coz i really dont know what to have. Its like i’d rather eat grass than sandwich. I know its not a good thing what i think. But its a fact.
N so i just watch NBA playoffs Heat vs Celtics on tv. 1st quarter… then the 2nd went by, n suddenly my wife came up to me with a cheese omelet, a chicken sausage with rice. It was really a good something for me :). On my first bite, it turns my boring morning into a bright shiny one. N im sooo ready for today!
Some say your day determine by how your morning went through. In this case a good nice healthy breakfast would do nicely. So have a good one guys but most of all be always greatful for what you have especialy in the morning. HAVE A GREAT ONE!
Thanks to my lovely wife for making me feel wonderful..

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Human’s body is a work of art.

Today im writing this coz i hv this thought a while ago. 4 weeks ago i hv a sprained ankle when playing basketball. I jump n i landed on someone’s foot i guess. I dont really remember. All i know is that i fell like a building been demolished. It really is painful at that time. Although this is not the first time i got sprain ankle, but this one was pretty bad. I cant even put any weight on my left foot that sprained.
Im with my wife at that time, but there is not much she can do bout it. So i was picked up by my brother n bro in law coz i cant even walk.
At home i was treated with this massage or in indonesian its called urut. As u may know it was painful like h*ll. But most people said it would heal faster than in hospital. Yeah right…but it hurts as well.
After the 15 minutes of a painful massage, i feel not much of a good result. Still cant put any weight on my left foot. So i guess this is serious one.
After i searched on google bout sprained ankle, i found out that i hv a grade 2 out of 3 on this one. N the minimum time to totally heal is 4-6weeks. Yeah this is serious indeed.
So i passed the days walking with a 4 leg crutch n 1 foot (right). Walking around the house is exhausting.
1st week then the 2nd week, my left foot is getting better everyday. The swelling is almost gone n the pain was decreasing.
So the 3rd week im starting to put my left foot down on the floor when i walked. So i hv to put weight on it n so the muscle wouldnt stiff.
Just so u know all that time, most of the stuff im doing was helped by my wife :).
In the end of the 3rd week im starting to use 1legged crutch. N can put more weight on my foot. Just keeping the spirit to heal, the 4th week that is now, at last i can put down the crutch n walk in both foot 🙂 although still hv a lil bit swelling. But now i can drive again, n went somewhere whetever i want. Still hv a recovery to do anyway. thinking that what a tremendous work of art our body is. Its like it can heal itself with no medicine like wolverine :D. So God give us this body is really a blessing. So take the most of it n  a really good care of it.

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My first n my first blog!

Hi guys!
This is my first ever post here at wordpress. Just wanna share bout how i hv this idea to write something on a blog. Im a photography geek or at least i consider i am :D, n i previously had a blog at tumblr. But its kinda visual blog filled with my photographs. On tumblr i can share what comes in my mind into a photos. But after a while i just feel like sharing whats in my mind into words. I just hope it’ll be useful to me n gladly to u all guys. Well the journey starts here! Enjoy!
Oh anyway here’s my tumblr link just in case 😀 –> ipatch photojerk